Today I wanted to dance really badly. I felt it in my soul like I had to move and express. I left work too late. Just missed the A train that I needed to make it to class in time. I started crying. I couldn't explain why but I felt so overwhelmed with emotion or why that was the release I needed. I disappointed myself.
Today was an emotional day in which I was faced with a lot of reality. I had to destroy some old beliefs, walls, and blockages and I feel renewed. I was extremely sensitive, my emotions were on high alert. Themes of life and death stared me in the face. I got in touch with my heart and and opened it. I'm still afraid but quite hopeful. I earned another badge of courage today.
Well, even though "today" is officially February 3, I celebrated Imbolc, a traditionally pagan holiday that recognizes the midway point between winter solstice and the rebirth of the spring equinox. Groundhog's Day seems to have derived from this tradition; agrarian cultures read nature to decide when to plant in preparation for the upcoming spring. Thank Goddess, because I am not into the winter but am learning to appreciate it. So anyway, celebrated is the wrong word, more like I experienced Imbolc and with today's beautiful 50+ degree weather, I feel like the Universe is telling me to plant my seeds early because the next cycle is gonna be frutiful :)
Below is some more info about the roots of Imbolic, thanks to a wonderful sister goddess friend, courtesy of the We'Moon Calendar 2009.
Imbolic/Brigid (February 2, 2009)
At Candlemas, awakening begins and the return of the light seems assured. Energies within the earth, as well as the physical body, begin to gently pulsate as the days lengthen and our hopes turn to spring. Traditionally a time of transformation and initiation, Candlemas brings "big dreams" and a raised vibration. Sap rises, trees bud and agricultural people everywhere look to nature for the omens that might tell them whether to plant their crops early or late this year. In our tumultuous time, however, human-caused global climate change has wrought more intense storms and weather conditions, making it difficult to read these simple oracles.
With powerful Pluto having recently entered the physical sign of Capricorn (until 2024), we look forward now to momentous planetary and personal change. The wise woman releases obsolete forms. As old structures crumble, inside and all around us, a mantra can help to stabilize our energies and subdue our fears. Try saying the protective Sanskrit syllables OM AH HUM over and over whenever you feel afraid, and imagine yourself sitting safely inside of Kali's dance of liberation.
Solo ritual: http://paganwiccan.about.com/od/imbolcfebruary2/ht/CandleRite_Sol.htm
(art from: atlas-art.blogspot.com/)
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